"Break Every Chain"

I haven't written a blog in a while, no particular reason, I work overnights, personal life and honestly I try not to write anything that God doesn't put on my heart. Lately my creative engine has been in full gear. I finished my book and I've even wrote a few songs. Now please understand I've been writing forever but I've never wrote a song and never thought I could, especially a Christian song, but God works in mysterious ways. For the past month in a half the song "Break Every Chain" has been in my head 24/7, to the point where I was getting tired of singing it. I couldn't figure out why it was in my head or was God trying to tell me something.

Let me start here in Texas it was easy to quick drinking and partying because it wasn't NYC, but I found out when I came back to NYC that it was much harder. Sometimes I found myself having a glass of wine or hanging out late on Saturdays knowing I had to be to church Sunday morning. Friendships that I cherish became burdensome. I found myself on the outside of my circle looking in?  I had to take time and pray and fast to understand what was happening. That's when that song popped in my head.

After days of praying and fasting, it hit me like a ton of bricks and the message was clear. I'M NOT WHO I USE TO BE and if I continued to try to be who I used to be the treasures that God has for me will be taken away. So I had to break chains of drinking, of partying, of doing everything that I know is wrong in Gods eyes. As the message settled in my mind I prayed hard for people who I knew I was leaving behind, not because I want to but because I knew that right now there lifestyle and my lifestyle were on two different levels. Not saying that they couldn't be in my life or that I wouldn't be there when they needed me but because Friday and Saturday nights are now different for me. I rather get drunk on Jesus then buy a bottle of wine, I find myself running after the word and dwelling in it.

The chains are broken for lust, depression, pain, addictions and so forth and my only prayer is that he delivers them as he has delivered me. With that being said, once I turned everything over to God that's when the songs came and the book got finished and I just can't stop writing. God has so much more for your life than you are allowing him to give because you have placed yourself in a this bubble that leads to nowhere. I'm not saying that being a Christian is a piece a cake because it's not but being a Christian just means that I trust God to get me through each and every situation. Do you trust him?