Romans 7:13-25 "Has then what is good become death to me? Certainly not! But sin, that it might appear sin, was producing death in me through what is good, so that sin through the commandment might become exceedingly sinful. For we know that the law is spiritual, but I am carnal, sold under sin. For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good. But now, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good. For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man. But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin."
My problem is I love to be in control. I don't like people to lead me or to tell me what to do. I may listen to other's opinions but honestly I take it with a grain of salt. As I have mentioned in previous blogs God has asked me to trust him over and over and over and I'll trust him for a little bit then I'll go right back to trying to do things myself. My biggest fear is being broke. I have no problem admitting it because we all have flaws or fears. Especially if something pops up or even thinking about my future I really go into to grind mode. Now God has promised to take care of me if I just trust him, have faith in him but me being the stubborn daughter that I am I haven't. Well lately I've been looking for a 2nd job. Why I don't know. After recent events I asked is this really not trusting God or is this the spirit of greed within me. For having money isn't a sin but the love of money is. I really don't know but I'm praying on whatever it is that God forgives me and removes it from me. Any who recently, like I said, Ive been looking for a 2nd job. This lady contacts me talking about working from home. For some reason I don't why I didn't see it was a scam... I mean screaming red flag. All I kept saying was more money GREAT!!! Any who these people sent me a check and told me when I cash it I should buy the materials I needed for my home office. I was like great, I told my fiance and he was like that sounds good. Any who I went and put the 2900.00 check in my account. After I went back home and went to sleep, I had a dream I kept hearing search the company, search the company. So I searched the company and of course it was a scam. Smh. I went into panic mode. I was scared, I was like I'm going to jail and all sorts of stuff. I called my bank the next morning and warned them of the fake check and I called the attorney generals office to make a report. Thank God they didn't get any of my money but the fact that I allowed all of this to happen was because I didn't trust God to do what he has promised me over and over he would do. I feel horrible and once I again I pray for forgiveness. God has always taken care of me way more than I know. I've always been employed, he has blessed my non profit, I am blessed, mentally, physically, emotionally and also financially. I say all of this to say have you been trusting God? Sometimes God allows situations to happen to snap us back to reality. So are you trusting God, are you continuously falling backwards, honestly there is a underlining reason for it. Is it the spirit of greed, covetousness, fornication, adultery and so forth, which is something you have to pray on. Pray to God, fast, and ask God to remove anything from you that is not of him. Sometimes we may not even realize its a spirit or demon trying to keep us from trusting God or trying to keep us going back to what God has delivered us from. Break those chains, don't allow the enemy to have anymore power over you. Declare it in the name of Jesus that you will be delivered. I am praying for you and please pray for me for me that my only desire is to please God on a daily basis. Pray that God gives you discernment but most of all if you haven't accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Saviour please do so. Jesus Christ is our only way to break free from sin. For the ruler of this earth (the devil) is walking around like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour, the enemy is not playing his only job is to destroy us. Don't be destroyed but be built up in Christ and watch how much your life will change. DO NOT WALK ACCORDING TO THE FLESH, FOR THE FLESH IS WEAK BUT WALK ACCORDING TO THE SPIRIT. Be blessed my brothers and sisters.
