God is still AWESOME!!! Reflections of 2013,,,

As the new year approached, I decided to fast and pray and reflect on 2013!!!!  A lot seemed to happen this year, but honestly I feel like I had no control. Moving to a Texas was out of my control, moving from Texas was out of my control, getting a great job had nothing to do with me, finding a Christian man who is really Christian had nothing to do with me and definitely starting this blog had nothing to do with me. When the year first started I listened to God's voice and jumped on a plane with not much of anything. Though to me it made no sense at all, I did it and was blessed beyond measures. Then God decided to send me a man, which I wasn't looking for, because honestly I had given up on dating, but there he was. It's funny because he was always there, I just never noticed him.We are good but whether we last or God wants him to only be my friend, I'm glad God sent him to me because it showed me there are still some good Christian men in the world who will treat you like a queen without you having to give up your Christian morals. I don't know where we are going but hey stay tuned!!! I learned one thing ladies that are reading you don't have to give a man your body just for him to stay and be faithful, God has more in store for you than that. I mean if you give a man everything why should he marry you, literally you have given him everything a wife would, so there is no title needed. Just my opinion though. Back to me then God said it was time to leave Texas, now I know why, but then I didn't. God saved me once again,but I'm glad I listened to his voice and moved back. I also thank God for Edward my car, who is a little bipolar but hey he runs. Then there's  my Gaga, who made it another year and honestly I didn't think she would. The doctors said plenty of times that she wouldn't but she did, which shows us God has the final say and well sorry docs your opinion is just that, an opinion. I also lost a love one due to tragic death and while I refuse to mention his and her name I must say this gave me the most grief for 2013. Only because during my prayers I knew it was going to happen but I was too late and that scared me. I was scared because first who am I that I must know anything like that and second why must I know. I still haven't heard from God on that one, I died inside over that, I had no peace of mind. Then I realized that fear comes from the enemy and well the enemy has no power over here so, I prayed hard and cried hard and fell to my knees hard and asked God to carry me through that time. God showed me so much in 2013 that I can't began to thank him enough. Something else I must mention, in 2013 I lost a friend, no tears lost, but I couldn't understand why. I prayed on it hard and then God showed me something, she wasn't a friend that was suppose to last. I'll tell you why, during my son's life, she was without a doubt my best friend, she was the only friend who called everyday, she made sure I ate, she made sure I laughed, she made sure I went out and she listened. I had other best friends but she took the lead role in that part of my life. I thank her, because she was exactly what I needed. When we had our first fight, I said let's try again, after the second one my spirit told me to let go. I continued to pray and it was shown to me that the friendship wasn't meant to last. Even though we don't speak I still pray for her and her family, I have no animosity towards her, because God gave me her at the right time and took her away at the right time and well God's timing is perfect. Another huge thing that happened is My Little Sister accepted Jesus Christ as her Lord and Savior, which I never expected but we went to a prayer circle and a lot was said and I'm glad I got to hear her story. I realized we all have a story to tell and though I always felt like I had to be more of her second parent, I can finally just be her sister. I know she has a long way to go but I know with Christ on her side she will find her way.
With all of that being said, I have no resolutions for the year to come that most people will have, mines is simple, it's to Wait on The Lord. I don't want to do anything in 2014 that God doesn't want me to. My book is finished and God has expanded my gift to even writing songs. Though I never thought about music, it's a door God has opened so why not. So while most folks will be getting turned up for the world in 2014, I'll be getting turned up for Jesus. I pray that you all seek God and allow him to manifest in your life. To my bffs I pray you take on the task I sent you seriously and to you all if it be in God's will I'll see you in 2014!!!

PS: I picked a bible verse that I will apply to my life for 2014 which is Psalm 27!!!! I am going to print it put and put it on my wall and say it everyday!!! Try it!!! Let me know which one you picked!!!! Thanks for following me through this year and I pray that God blesses all of you who are reading.

Jesus is the only reason for the season!!!

It's funny how for any holiday that doesn't have to do I with Christ remains untouched but when it has to do with Jesus the world wants to change it and give the holidays symbols for people to idolize over. Example, Christmas which is about the birth of Christ has somehow been turned into the world raising their children to worship and man in a suit and to buying expensive gifts half of us can't even afford. Another example Easter, which is about the crucification of Christ and him rising from the dead but somehow it has turned into worshipping bunnies and again buying expensive clothes half of us can't afford. The saddest part is most Christians are doing this and see nothing wrong with it. Does this behavior remind you of something, how about the children of Israel, when they worshipped idols and continued to disobey Gods word. No this isn't a long blog but I must say my fellow Christians let's celebrate in this season for the right reason, Jesus Christ. Our savior was born and without his grace and mercy where would we be? Let's give him the honor and the praise, he is worthy, he is the Alpha and Omega! HE is THE SON OF GOD and this season, while I am thankful for family and friends, I'm thankful for the birth of Christ even more!!! Glory be to God!!! Be blessed!!!!!

"Break Every Chain"

I haven't written a blog in a while, no particular reason, I work overnights, personal life and honestly I try not to write anything that God doesn't put on my heart. Lately my creative engine has been in full gear. I finished my book and I've even wrote a few songs. Now please understand I've been writing forever but I've never wrote a song and never thought I could, especially a Christian song, but God works in mysterious ways. For the past month in a half the song "Break Every Chain" has been in my head 24/7, to the point where I was getting tired of singing it. I couldn't figure out why it was in my head or was God trying to tell me something.

Let me start here in Texas it was easy to quick drinking and partying because it wasn't NYC, but I found out when I came back to NYC that it was much harder. Sometimes I found myself having a glass of wine or hanging out late on Saturdays knowing I had to be to church Sunday morning. Friendships that I cherish became burdensome. I found myself on the outside of my circle looking in?  I had to take time and pray and fast to understand what was happening. That's when that song popped in my head.

After days of praying and fasting, it hit me like a ton of bricks and the message was clear. I'M NOT WHO I USE TO BE and if I continued to try to be who I used to be the treasures that God has for me will be taken away. So I had to break chains of drinking, of partying, of doing everything that I know is wrong in Gods eyes. As the message settled in my mind I prayed hard for people who I knew I was leaving behind, not because I want to but because I knew that right now there lifestyle and my lifestyle were on two different levels. Not saying that they couldn't be in my life or that I wouldn't be there when they needed me but because Friday and Saturday nights are now different for me. I rather get drunk on Jesus then buy a bottle of wine, I find myself running after the word and dwelling in it.

The chains are broken for lust, depression, pain, addictions and so forth and my only prayer is that he delivers them as he has delivered me. With that being said, once I turned everything over to God that's when the songs came and the book got finished and I just can't stop writing. God has so much more for your life than you are allowing him to give because you have placed yourself in a this bubble that leads to nowhere. I'm not saying that being a Christian is a piece a cake because it's not but being a Christian just means that I trust God to get me through each and every situation. Do you trust him?