For The Love Of Money

"For the LOVE of money is a root of all kinds  of evil, for which some have strayed from the faith in their greediness, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows."
I Timothy 6:10 NKJV


Being from NYC, the city of hustling and bustling, I started working at the age of 14 making 10.00 a hour in 1997. I never had a minimum wage job. I worked hard, I hustled hard. I stacked money and became overly greedy. That extra shift wasn't enough I needed more, so I left school and got a second job. Sometimes I would work 24 hours rest for four hours and do it again the next day. After I got saved (2012) I still had the same mind set, my husband married a hustler (2016) and then God spoke to me (2016). "Pam you have enough." I quickly replied ummm God no I don't I want this, I want that what about my bills and what about my savings. God chuckled at me and I was like what is it? But I knew the answer, God knew my bills and what I wanted and needed. God spoke really clear to me "I will take care of you", it was such a soft whisper that it brought tears to my eyes. I prayed and prayed about my job, scared to let the money go, scared to let the tuition reimbursement go, just scared. Then my supervisor happened to pull me in her office and mentioned being per diem, which is working 4x a month. Mind you I am a full time student, I have a internship full time and I have a non profit that is full time plus I'm a wife, a newlywed at that. I spoke with my husband and he was like "do whatever you wanna do". That sure didn't help me decide. I prayed and prayed some more and decided I would go per diem. I brought it to God and the Spirit literally said if that's what you want to do. What!!! Come on God tell me what to do. And it came to me that God gives us free will to choose him or the world, to chase him or chase money. I chose God and left it all at the cross. For the scriptures says in Matthew 6:26-27 "Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?  Which of you by worrying can add one cubit to his stature?
For the word says be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. (Philippians 4:6).  God's word is forever true. We as human beings have a tendency to want to have complete control when in all reality God has the control. God does give us a choice but those of us who belong to him know the choice we should always make, which is to always trust God to supply our needs. Now that I am per diem, I pray more, I read more, I focus more on the vision God has given me, God has given me less bills and I have a overabundance of everything I need. I began reading this book Having A Mary Heart in a Martha World by Joanna Weaver. This book was spectacular. This was me, from the beginning of the book until the end. I was always running and never sleeping and resting. But God said he will give you rest. So why was I tired and lacking in my walk because I was like Martha running around when Mary was sitting at Jesus feet getting what she needed. For Christ told Martha, "oh Martha you worry about many things but only.one thing is needed and Mary has chosen what is right. Chasing that dollar won't get you into heaven, running tirelessly won't allow you to focus on God. A lot of my friends are running chasing that dollar and I just look and listen to them because I know that chasing that dollar may bring you what you want but only one thing is needed Christ said. Now I'm not saying don't work, go work for the Bible says a man who doesn't work doesn't eat and that is for women too BUT there is a difference between working and hustling for the love of that money because you feel you don't have enough. If you are saved and you know Christ then you should know that you have more than enough. If you are not saved then of course I understand why you are doing what you are doing because you don't have the Savior to lean on. Get saved, have faith, repent and allow the Lord to lead and guide your life. For God says I have never seen the righteous forsaken or begging bread. Be blessed.