Back Up Off Me!!! A Good Night Prayer!!!!

Dear Enemy,

I come to tell you in the name of Jesus, STAND BACK!!! I know, I know this is your job but I'm sorry to be the one to tell you, YOU'RE FIRED!!! Do you think I really have the time, for your doubts and insecurities for your lies and impurities playing with my mind like I'm some type of rag doll, I'm a daughter of the one TRUE KING, sir I stand tall. First you throw fiery darts and make me question God's plans then you try to touch my health, so that I can no longer stand. You then come for my job and make me wanna quit you then come for my classes and stand in the front of the room where I sit. You try to make me say I don't have time for this organization maybe I should push it back a bit, what you need to do it back up off me because I'm not going to quit. You try to jump into my finances and make me think I need to work more than I should, you would have me working to death, literally only if you could. You come for family and think I'm supposed to just stand by, no it doesn't work like that, so you can stop with that lie. I know you're the ruler of this world but sorry not of me, I'm  kicking you out my life, my mind, my job, my finances, HA you thought you had the best of me. "Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord and whose hope is the Lord for he shall be like a tree planted by the waters, which spreads out it's roots by the river and will not fear when heat comes"...Get thee behind me satan, I'm definitely not the one!!!
IN JESUS NAME AMEN!!!

BE BOLD!!!!!

Hello everyone, I pray you all are well. I decided to write this blog tonight after praying for some things I'm going through personally and some things family and friends I have are going through also. This probably wont be a long blog because I'm going to get straight to the point. First let me say its definitely praying time. I pray for the people in Oregon who was involved in that shooting. Second I will talk about how when I was praying, the Spirit told me that I have power in Jesus name. Now most of you will say, I already know that. My question to you then is why do we fear? Why do we worry or stress when our children are acting out, why can't we break habits that we know keep us from being holy, when the fact of the matter is we have power to overcome anything in Jesus name.  Lately in my classes I have been fearful of speaking, I dont say much at all. I have this overpowering fear that I dont wanna speak in school, church, no where and when I was driving home tonight from work, while listening to K-Love I said to myself enough is enough. So I got home and began praying and I began to tell the enemy enough is enough, you've had your fun but you gotta go cuz I dont have the time. During my prayer I thought of Christ when he sent the spirit out of the men into the herd of pigs and in Luke 10:17-20 when the seventy returned with joy saying "Lord even the demons are subject to us in Your name."  And Christ said to them "Behold I give you the authority to trample on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy and nothing shall by any means hurt you." So I ask as Christians why do we walk around like we do not have power in Jesus name? Im not saying be boastful about this power but stand bold and tell the enemy, get thee behind me satan... for the enemy is the ruler of this world and he is walking around like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour, but DO NOT LET HIM DEVOUR YOU!!! Be bold, put on the full armor while you are out there because we arent only at war with this crazy world, there is a spiritual warfare going on and the enemy doesnt want you as a soldier in Christ army. My brothers and sisters it is time for deep prayer and fasting, its revival time, its midnight prayer time, its a "Im on the battlefield for my Lord" time, and its time to get saved if you are not saved. Read the Bible if you who are not saved think all Christians are crazy, God's word is true and everything that is happening is in God's word. Accept Christ as your Lord and Saviour and then let the Holy Spirit manifest in you trust me even I get scared sometimes and even I experience doubt but I thank God for my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ and I am forever grateful that THERE IS POWER IN HIS NAME!!!! To God be the glory!!!! Be blessed my brothers and sisters!!!

Choose Wisely!!!!!

By now everyone knows, from reading my previous blogs, that I grew up in the church. I grew up Baptist and basically knew every book in the Bible. Not the the exact words just the names, which also had something to do with me attending a Christian elementary school before I transferred over to public school. I knew the "main" Bible verses as people would call them, Psalm 23, John 3:16, The Lord's prayer and so forth. I come to realize over this pass week that even though I grew up in the church, I lacked knowledge when it came to having a personal relationship with Christ. I was under the assumption that if I just believed in Christ, which I did, that was it. I figured I was set and there was nothing else to do. If I did wrong the phrase "God knows my heart" was easily repeated and I just knew that, that was all there was.
After receiving the Holy Spirit and time passed on, I realized that there was so much more to knowing Christ and I had to do a lot of soul searching (even to this day) to even think that I was getting into those heavenly gates one day. I realized the church wasnt enough. Even though I go like most people on Sunday mornings that didn't guarantee my name in the book of lambs. I sometimes watch some of my friends post, sometimes its about Jesus and 2 seconds later they are cursing and most of my friends go to church. But what I'm saying is the church DOES NOT SAVE BUT CHRIST SAVES. You can go to church every single Sunday and even sit on the front pew and be more full of the enemy then the non believer. Church is great, I get to fellowship and pray with the saints, I get to lay my burdens down and I love hearing the word because it keeps me refreshed but if you think that just going to church is going to get you in the kingdom, then oooo chile you have a lot to learn, just like I have a lot to learn... You cant live anyway you want and expect to get into heaven. That "God knows my heart" is old and played. Truth is he really does know your heart and he knows the thoughts you think, the married man you won't leave, the alcoholic you are, how you steal, how you treat others, how you gossip, how you use HIS name in vain, how you refuse to live Holy and how you don't even push your children to live Holy, the man/woman you living with that aint your husband/wife... the list goes on. So I say this to you get right with God and repent and ask God to remove anything from inside of you that isn't of him. For the world is in shambles, people are being killed left and right, children are lost, parents are even more lost, get saved because no man knows the day nor the hour and don't you wanna be in the number. As the pastor said today, there is only one of 2 places you will end up heaven or hell, choose wisely.
Ephesians 4: 17-24(KJV)
This I say therefore, and testify in the Lord, that ye henceforth walk not as other Gentiles walk, in the vanity of their mind, Having the understanding darkened, being alienated from the life of God through the ignorance that is in them, because of the blindness of their heart:  Who being past feeling have given themselves over unto lasciviousness, to work all uncleanness with greediness.  But ye have not so learned Christ;  If so be that ye have heard him, and have been taught by him, as the truth is in Jesus:  That ye put off concerning the former conversation the old man, which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts;  And be renewed in the spirit of your mind;  And that ye put on the new man, which after God is created in righteousness and true holiness.

Opened eyes: The Sin That Dwells In Me!!!

Romans 7:13-25 "Has then what is good become death to me? Certainly not! But sin, that it might appear sin, was producing death in me through what is good, so that sin through the commandment might become exceedingly sinful. For we know that the law is spiritual, but I am carnal, sold under sin. For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it  is good. But now, it  is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. For the good that I will to  do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to  do, that I practice. Now if I do what I will not to  do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good. For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man. But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord! So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin."


My problem is I love to be in control. I don't like people to lead me or to tell me what to do. I may listen to other's opinions but honestly I take it with a grain of salt. As I have mentioned in previous blogs God has asked me to trust him over and over and over and I'll trust him for a little bit then I'll go right back to trying to do things myself. My biggest fear is being broke. I have no problem admitting it because we all have flaws or fears. Especially if something pops up or even thinking about my future I really go into to grind mode. Now God has promised to take care of me if I just trust him, have faith in him but me being the stubborn daughter that I am I haven't. Well lately I've been looking for a 2nd job. Why I don't  know. After recent events I asked is this really not trusting God or is this the spirit of greed within me. For having money isn't a sin but the love of money is. I really don't know but I'm praying on whatever it is that God forgives me and removes it from me. Any who recently, like I said, Ive been looking for a 2nd job. This lady contacts me talking about working from home. For some reason I don't why I didn't  see it was a scam... I mean screaming red flag. All I kept saying was more money GREAT!!! Any who these people sent me a check and told me when I cash it I should buy the materials I needed for my home office. I was like great, I told my fiance and he was like that sounds good. Any who I went and put the 2900.00 check in my account. After I went back home and went to sleep, I had a dream I kept hearing search the company, search the company. So I searched the company and of course it was a scam. Smh. I went into panic mode. I was scared, I was like I'm going to jail and all sorts of stuff. I called my bank the next morning and warned them of the fake check and I called the attorney generals office to make a report. Thank God they didn't get any of my money but the fact that I allowed all of this to happen was because I didn't trust God to do what he has promised me over and over he would do. I feel horrible and once I again I pray for forgiveness. God has always taken care of me way more than I know. I've always been employed, he has blessed my non profit, I am blessed, mentally, physically, emotionally and also financially. I say all of this to say have you been trusting God? Sometimes God allows situations to happen to snap us back to reality. So are you trusting God, are you continuously falling backwards, honestly there is a underlining reason for it. Is it the spirit of greed, covetousness, fornication, adultery and so forth, which is something you have to pray on.  Pray to God, fast, and ask God to remove anything from you that is not of him. Sometimes we may not even realize its a spirit or demon trying to keep us from trusting God or trying to keep us going back to what God has delivered us from. Break those chains, don't allow the enemy to have anymore power over you. Declare it in the name of Jesus that you will be delivered. I am praying for you and please pray for me for me that my only desire is to please God on a daily basis. Pray that God gives you discernment  but most of all if you haven't accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Saviour please do so.  Jesus Christ is our only way to break free from sin.  For the ruler of this earth (the devil) is walking around like a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour, the enemy is not playing his only job is to destroy us. Don't  be destroyed but be built up in Christ and watch how much your life will change. DO NOT WALK ACCORDING TO THE FLESH, FOR THE FLESH IS WEAK BUT WALK ACCORDING TO THE SPIRIT.  Be blessed my brothers and sisters.

Maybe If I Would Have Just Listened!!!!!

Wow I haven't wrote a blog in a very long time. Not that I don't have any thing to say but my life has gotten a lit bit hectic. First there is school and work and second I'M ENGAGED!!! JESSSSSUUUUUUSSSSS!!!! Yes!!!!! Lol!!! So I've been wedding planning and so forth. Anyway this blog isn't about that. This blog is about listening to the spirit because it will never steer you wrong and what happens when you don't listen. About a month ago while I was so busy running around, the spirit definitely told me I better start fasting and praying, like immediately. I was puzzled and couldn't understand why, I know I'm not supposed to question God and I did say, OK next week, because this week is way to busy. The next week came and again the spirit instructed me to fast and pray. I said alright alright but once again I went about my business.  So while visiting my Gaga in the hospital right before she passed, the spirit said fast and pray a storm is coming. Well of course I just thought maybe my Gaga was going to go through another long hospital visit, or maybe it was my job or my relationship and I just prayed and continued running around, like usual. Then while I was at work on my lunch break I dozed off and a dream came to me about 345am I was running around looking for my Gaga and the angel kept telling me she was gone and I was screaming and screaming and I woke up scared to death and I looked at my phone and there was a message from my mom saying she had to run to the hospital something happened with my Gaga, I knew before I called her 8 times that Gaga was gone but when she confirmed it, I could not breathe, even while writing this it's hard to breathe. Then I remembered the spirit continuously telling me to fast and pray, not to keep my Gaga here any longer but so I could be prepared for her leaving my family. I wasn't prepared or ready and can you believe the spirit tried to get me ready, so I could be spiritually grounded. Of course I would grieve but I wouldn't feel so lost and alone if I would have just listened to instructions. Everyone knows Gaga was my best friend, but like she always said "it's alright to have friends on this earth but no one can do you like Jesus and once you grasp that well baby you never let go of his unchanging hand and you'll never truly be alone"..  I know better to listen to the spirit, but why didn't I? Was I that consumed in the world that I ignored instructions? Is what the world was talking about more important than what God is talking about? God forbid. God never leads us astray and he still loves us even when we don't want to listen!!! What I've learned is that keep a ear out for what God wants you to do and stop listening to whatever the world is talking about, stop stressing over things that you have no control over because in the end no matter what you decide to do, He is the author and the finisher and well that means HE HAS THE FINAL SAY BUT he will never "leave you nor forsake you" and with that being said I'm trusting his plan even though it's hard right now!!!!
To my family: Its hard right now and hey there will be times we will think of Gaga and cry or even laugh at her jokes but one thing I know is that she raised a strong family, EVERY SINGLE LAST ONE OF US IS STRONG!! So stay strong, pray constantly, read your Bibles and trust that God will give you peace about this sooner rather than later. Be blessed!!! To my Gaga I love and miss you!!! Be blessed my brothers and sisters