Wow I haven't wrote a blog in a very long time. Not that I don't have any thing to say but my life has gotten a lit bit hectic. First there is school and work and second I'M ENGAGED!!! JESSSSSUUUUUUSSSSS!!!! Yes!!!!! Lol!!! So I've been wedding planning and so forth. Anyway this blog isn't about that. This blog is about listening to the spirit because it will never steer you wrong and what happens when you don't listen. About a month ago while I was so busy running around, the spirit definitely told me I better start fasting and praying, like immediately. I was puzzled and couldn't understand why, I know I'm not supposed to question God and I did say, OK next week, because this week is way to busy. The next week came and again the spirit instructed me to fast and pray. I said alright alright but once again I went about my business. So while visiting my Gaga in the hospital right before she passed, the spirit said fast and pray a storm is coming. Well of course I just thought maybe my Gaga was going to go through another long hospital visit, or maybe it was my job or my relationship and I just prayed and continued running around, like usual. Then while I was at work on my lunch break I dozed off and a dream came to me about 345am I was running around looking for my Gaga and the angel kept telling me she was gone and I was screaming and screaming and I woke up scared to death and I looked at my phone and there was a message from my mom saying she had to run to the hospital something happened with my Gaga, I knew before I called her 8 times that Gaga was gone but when she confirmed it, I could not breathe, even while writing this it's hard to breathe. Then I remembered the spirit continuously telling me to fast and pray, not to keep my Gaga here any longer but so I could be prepared for her leaving my family. I wasn't prepared or ready and can you believe the spirit tried to get me ready, so I could be spiritually grounded. Of course I would grieve but I wouldn't feel so lost and alone if I would have just listened to instructions. Everyone knows Gaga was my best friend, but like she always said "it's alright to have friends on this earth but no one can do you like Jesus and once you grasp that well baby you never let go of his unchanging hand and you'll never truly be alone".. I know better to listen to the spirit, but why didn't I? Was I that consumed in the world that I ignored instructions? Is what the world was talking about more important than what God is talking about? God forbid. God never leads us astray and he still loves us even when we don't want to listen!!! What I've learned is that keep a ear out for what God wants you to do and stop listening to whatever the world is talking about, stop stressing over things that you have no control over because in the end no matter what you decide to do, He is the author and the finisher and well that means HE HAS THE FINAL SAY BUT he will never "leave you nor forsake you" and with that being said I'm trusting his plan even though it's hard right now!!!!
To my family: Its hard right now and hey there will be times we will think of Gaga and cry or even laugh at her jokes but one thing I know is that she raised a strong family, EVERY SINGLE LAST ONE OF US IS STRONG!! So stay strong, pray constantly, read your Bibles and trust that God will give you peace about this sooner rather than later. Be blessed!!! To my Gaga I love and miss you!!! Be blessed my brothers and sisters
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