Wow it's almost 2015. This year flew by so fast. I really don't know where the time went. I first must give God the glory for keeping me through 2014, opening my eyes through 2014 and giving me discernment in 2014. The one thing I am proud of most is receiving the Holy Spirit even though other things have happened that brought me closer to God and that is my main goal in life being a great child of my almighty Lord and Savior. Now that God has gotten the glory I can began to reflect.
2014 started out good, a great man of God prophesied that I would finish my book and I did, which is GREAT!!! I had been procrasinating when it came to finishing the book. I really didnt want to add people in the book and portray anyone negatively. So I needed God to guide my hands and mind when it came to writing. I didn't write much in my blog only because I only write what God puts on my heart. This year I felt like I grew more emotionally and mentally.
Throughout this year I also learned to humble myself and apologize to others. Even when I was wrong because first forgiveness is a must and second Im too old to be walking around mad or having someone mad at me.
First was a woman who was there for me throughout the hardest time in my life. She felt I wronged her the friendship was done and I honestly didn't think I did anything wrong until God showed me otherwise. God showed me that I can't choose sides and also that she was hurt by my reaction to her feelings. So I apologized and the funny part is what she had told me was the truth and maybe I wasn't mature enough at the time. Maybe I just didn't want to see it but I've learned a lot from her and I didn't even know I did. She's like the older version of me and we are only a year apart. We aren't as close as before but she accepted my apology and we talk sometimes. I pray God continues to bless her and wait, her new bundle of joy. My sister I love you and Thank you for being the honesty I needed, even when I didn't wanna hear it.
I also learned that you have to be careful how you say things and what you say. The bible says to be slow to speak and quick to hear. Lol well I was always fast to speak. With that I hurt someone else and its not that I didn't mean what I said its just I said it in a very mean way and I would never want to portray Christ like that. So I apologized to her.
What I learned from that is Ive outgrown certain people and certain things. Even though I love some of my friends, I have to love them from a distance. I pray for them everyday to know Christ and to grow in all aspects of their life but I just don't have the desire to hang around them like I did years ago. I tried to fight it for so long to where I became uncomfortable around them and I rather keep my distance than to lie to myself and them.
Plus when someone continues to portray the same behavior over and over and you've confronted them a bunch of times and they still don't get it, its like alright I'm done. Love ya but you stay over there.
I also learned to trust God this year which I put in a previous post. I stopped working like a maniac and the bills still got paid and we all know how, HA GOD. He is so awesome.
One last things I did which was major was leaving my church. I had been at my church since I was a child. I had been battling with this for almost 3 years whether I should stay or go. Then someone told me "when God is ready for you to go, he'll tell you, the spirit will tell you" so I sat still for about a year and then the spirit started making me uncomfortable and while I was praying God said to Go. I attend a new Church now and I love it. I still help my old church out, I never mind helping someone but I learned a few years ago when God says move you better start shuffling your feet ASAP!!!
I tell you I could go on and on about the events of 2014 but I'm leaving 2014 with this Lord I'm Ready Now. I've been running so long from the anointing on my life. I've been worried about everything except what God wants me to do. God has given me confirmation on some things and I'm trusting him to make it happen. God is beyond awesome.
To my starting 5 I love you all because you guys support my walk with Christ, you encourage me to continue on and at the same time you all keep me laughing everyday. Idk what I would do without that GroupMe chat lol.
To my family I love yall and I love how even if we don't see each other all of the time when we finally all get together its all love. I mean both sides of the family.
To my love, my bff, my mirror I love you and I'm sooooo excited about our future. Even though I drive you insane you still love me unconditionally.
Finally I got a new job coming well a transfer, I finished this semester strong, my book is complete and I'm really focused on becoming healthy physically.
With that being said, I'm ready and I pray you are all ready for 2015. I speak life and prosperity for you all, claim your year. As for me well I cant say but know that God has great things in store for me. Next year will be life changing!!!!! Be blessed!!
