Wait I Have A Gift?

Before I got saved I was in church and I heard a member of the church speaking in tongues and of course I was like, what is he saying? I was like Lord am I not saved because I can't speak tongues and I can't understand it. As time went on I became frustrated because I couldn't understand why I wasn't given that gift, was I not deep enough in the spirit? Well while fasting and reading the Bible the other day I came across 1Corinthians 12:4-12:11 which reads:

"Now there are diversities of gifts, but the same Spirit.  And there are differences of administrations, but the same Lord.  And there are diversities of operations, but it is the same God which worketh all in all.  But the manifestation of the Spirit is given to every man to profit withal.  For to one is given by the Spirit the word of wisdom; to another the word of knowledge by the same Spirit; To another faith by the same Spirit; to another the gifts of healing by the same Spirit; To another the working of miracles; to another prophecy; to another discerning of spirits; to another [divers] kinds of tongues; to another the interpretation of tongues: But all these worketh that one and the selfsame Spirit, dividing to every man severally as he will."

So I began to wonder well, what's my spiritual gift? I prayed on it and was like God I'm going to sit right here until I know, I won't let go until you touch me. So the first day passed, nothing, the second day, nothing, the third day nothing. I said, why I can't I know, is it a secret? So one day at work, a coworker came up to me saying she was tired of working and that she felt depressed and so forth and I said "Everything will be okay, everything works out for the goodness for The Lord" and I kindly walked away and she stopped me and said "you are such a blessing, your spirit is so welcoming and for some reason it makes me not want to be sad, like hope" I smiled and said thank you but in my head I was like "ME". Well this seems to happen to me a lot whether its through my blog or some random person in the street. It's never someone I know always someone I don't know. A lady once told me "your smile alone makes me feel like everything will be alright". So when I got home I pondered on everything that has ever happened to me, every unusual experience and I said well what do you call this gift that soothes the soul or that makes people feel that life can go on? Honestly I don't know, but the answer I got from God is "you must manifest in it". Now what does that mean, my fellow Christians? Does that mean there's levels to this gift? And who am I?  I'm just just me.

I say all of this to say what is your spiritual gift? Are you using it? Are you scared to use it? Are you letting it go to waste?  God gave us all different gifts to reach people in different ways. I'm still working on mine, I would love for it to evolve into the gift God wants it to be, or maybe this is it, maybe my writing or my smile or my words  that I speak is it. I don't know but I do know if I can bring just one person to Christ and he becomes saved then hey I am satisfied. Be blessed my brothers and sisters.