Alone Time

It has been so long since I wrote in my blog. I must say that it is because I got sidetracked with life and I kind of threw blogging to the back burner. I got married, started my internship and have been focusing on my organization. Just recently around September The Spirit of God told me to fast. Like most people I figured okay no meat, no sweets pray more and read the word more. I was ready. Until I got around a bunch of people and realized that my fast wasn't food but people. I realized I was always surrounded by people, friends, family, and others but it was more than that. I was around people who wasn't good for my spirit. So it bothered me because I was like but these are my friends and family and coworkers but I said let me do it, but I found myself making excuses, for example; Oh no I already planned this so after this I'll take a break, or oh wait its her birthday so after that I'll take a break not realizing that I was actually not yielding to what God had asked me to do. I spoke to my husband about it and was like this is the hardest fast EVER. Then it kind of hit me and it was like how can I hear Gods voice if I'm always surrounded by others who are speaking louder than God. I couldn't possibly hear God because when I'm around others I'm not even looking for him to speak, I'm so in tune with what others are saying I block out my spiritual canal to hear God. Isaiah 30:15 states "  For thus says the Lord God , the Holy One of Israel: “In returning and rest you shall be saved; In quietness and confidence shall be your strength.” But you would not" I literally found myself doing what the flesh wanted me to do instead of taking quality time with God. Of course that causes for repentance.  Even Jesus had to take time out and pray and be alone.  "So He Himself often withdrew into the wilderness and prayed."
Luke 5:16. God requires us to separate ourselves so that we may hear his voice, his whispers. Friends and family talk will always be there but if we are to move in the Spirit we MUST start first obeying the word of God and the voice of God. We have reached a time where God is speaking to his people, God is building up his kingdom but how can you know when to move if his voice is just a faint whisper because your surroundings are so noisy.  So with that being said I find myself in a season of alone time. A season where I am "slow to speak and quick to listen", a season where some friends may not understand, a season where God is ready to give specific instructions and I am finally okay with that because I'm never truly alone for Christ has provided me a comforter, God is with me always and sometimes the walk with Christ is lonely because everyone can't go with you on your journey. Jesus had thousands with him on his way to the cross but none could understand his walk. Even in the midst of all of those people he was alone just HIM and the Father, I figure that's not such a bad place to be.

I say all of this to say sometimes you will feel lonely, sometimes it will be just you and your thoughts. Friends cannot always be around, family can't either but there is always a God in heaven waiting to whisper to you and talk to you and comfort you. Being alone in a place where you get to know God is such a great place to be. Try it!