You Are More!!!!!!!!

"Behold, what manner of love the Father hath bestowed upon us, that we should be called the children of God" (1 John 3:1). It took me 30 years to love myself, 30 years to find love and 30 years to express it. While looking at myself in the mirror the other day, I smiled and thought to myself Pam you are beautiful. My heart was smiling and I exhaled. I had never felt that before. I mean I always thought I loved myself but realized there is no possible way that could be. After finding Christ, I realized I'm soooooo much more than I thought I was. I'm a daughter of a king and why I never behaved so bothers me, not really for myself but for others around me. I use to wear little dresses and tight fitting clothes, I stayed with men who couldn't possibly give me what I wanted or needed, I degraded my body by having sex with someone who wasn't my husband, I would drink harder than any man and so forth and I realized now, I couldn't have loved myself the way I do now because if I did, I wouldn't have acted in such a way. You are more than what you are selling yourself for. A man/woman who really wants to be with you will wait and if he/she doesn't she want to then they are not worth your time. I see people on fb/Instagram going off everyday about the relationship they are in, the job they have, the money they don't have and so on. God has so much more for you but for some reason you think by doing it your way, you're gonna accomplish something. You lay up with your partner every night, has he or she mentioned marriage?  9 times out of 10 nope, y'all are still in the "dating stage" for 3 or 4 years. You are at the bottom when it comes to your job, everyone gets promoted but you, when will it end? You've been there forever and you don't see a problem with making the same pay for forever. I mean is it just me but it takes a whole lot of coins to live to survive these days. When do you say it's time for a change, when do you start asking God to remove the unnecessary from your life and when do you start making the change. I've always been a "go-getta" if that's what you would even call it. This time I allowed God to make the choice of job and trust I love my job. I was always in the bad relationship, trying to change a man, trying to make a family without the wife title, living with the man, planning this one sided future until God had to step and say, daughter you are more than this. Then when I said yes to God and let him do the work, I allowed him to send me who he wanted. How are we suppose to teach our children if we can't even get it right ourselves. Out the window with that 90 day rule, unless it ends with an I do. Out the window with working every single day of the week, out the window with  the devil manipulating your mind making you think you have to be a slave on your job. Like Paul, I'm only a prisoner of Christ!!! YOU ARE MORE!!! I'm not saying mistakes won't happen, I'm definitely not saying quit your job and sit at home, I'm saying trust God to make the decisions for you, trust God to lead you where you need to be and trust God to find your mate. I'm scared for our youth, I mourn for them because they have no one to guide them, the parents don't have them in church, the parents are lost, the parents are still playing house. Children mimic what they see, so it's okay for your daughter to be shacked up with some man who isn't her husband, it's okay for your son to be playing house with some woman or out in the streets all night and day. No it's not. I know every one wants to be turned up but I'm going to need you all to turn down for minute. I love myself so much more than I did years ago, my soul has joy, I see great things in the future and that's only because I'm going to work towards them, but God has something greater! I can feel it. For God says "eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him." Love God and trust him, I can't promise all flowers and lollipops, but I can promise that he will mold you into the beautiful person you are meant to be and you'll look back and say I was WAY more than I thought. Be blessed my brothers and sisters. May the peace of God be with you.