BOTTOMS DOWN!!!!

Most people know me as the drinker of the crew. In my college years I could out drink anyone.  I had no favorite drink anything you can think of I had it. I guess people would wonder how can I drink and be alright the next day or how could I drink without eating anything. I guess I can tell you why. My first drink was given to me at the age of 9 by my father, who was a chronic alcoholic, but one day I was jumping around like a crazy child and he gave me some Old English beer, which made my behavior worse because then I thought Freddy Kruger was on my wall and I was paranoid. After that I didn't have another drink til I was 18yrs, but mind you I had been clubbing since the age of 14, being grown, so I was always around the drinking and grown folks. By the time I got to college I was a full blown drinker. I carried drinks in my purse, I would get drunk before the club then get more drinks in the club. Only by the grace of God am I alive because honestly I hardly remember any of those parties, that's how much I use to drink. I would have black outs, people would have to carry me out of the club it was crazy. I would be urinating everywhere even in my exes bed. I know most of you are saying WE ALL DID THAT? Well it doesn't make it right or even cute. As I started to get older I noticed that drinking led to arguments between my friends and I and even some family members. Of course I've mended all of those relationships but I ask myself would these arguments have occurred if we were sober. Probably not. I found myself feeling guilty after a night of drinking. I couldn't understand why, I mean was one drink going to kill me? Then I realized one drink turned into two drinks then three drinks and by the time I realized it I had drunk the whole dorn bottle. Well once I came back to Texas after my birthday I was going to buy me a bottle of wine because I had major decisions to make and was very confused with the choice of staying in Texas or moving back to NYC, but while in the aisle of wine something walk away Pam. I said here we go again with the voices. I said its just a bottle of wine and as I reached for the bottle it fell, something came over me standing in the middle of Walmart and I decided I was over drinking, I was over blacking out, I was over needing a drink every time I was stressed, I was over giving my cares to the bottle and not Jesus. I'm not here to judge anyone that drinks, because who am I to judge anyone but I will say instead of the bottle try Jesus because the bottle is only going to last you until you finish it but God's mercy is everlasting and u can't buy that with a 20.00 bottle of wine, beer, liquor anything. God can cure any addiction you just need trust him.