Who Am I??????

One day while I was on my way to work driving on I-10 in San Antonio, TX I seen something that scared me to death. Most people will think I'm crazy when I say what I saw and most will know exactly what it was. Sad part is I still don't know what to make of it.  So let me tell you what I saw, a dog.  Not just an ordinary dog though, it was a huge black German Shepard, that stood at least 7 foot tall. While I approached it, I watched all the other cars just simply go around it, while I was in complete awe that this dog was there. No one else seemed to notice or maybe they didn't care. I felt like I was the only person that seen it. The crazy part is the dog never moved, budged, not even his head, he just looked dead at me and I was scared to death. While I passed the dog his eyes followed me and then when I looked back in my rear view mirror he was gone. Now I've worked with psych patients most of my life, so maybe I was becoming psychotic. I couldn't explain this dog to anyone, I was lost for words and that is hard for me. Then things begin to happen and not for the good I must say. I felt like The devil was chasing me, because I had left NYC and I said I was over it and over dealing with family and I wanted my friends at a distance, as for dating it was NULL AND VOID. Texas was for me to finally have a peace of mind, so when the job offer came in at a great hospital with great pay I said let me check it out, I mean why not. Did the interview and got the job, that most people would die for, but I didn't want it. It wasn't that I didn't want the job, I didn't want to go back to NYC, because I'm still over NYC. So as i begin to make this transition, things begin to go wrong and I said great now I can stay in Texas. It felt the like the devil was trying to keep me in Texas while God kept making a way for me to get to NYC. So I finally dropped to my knees and said God let your will be done, ill go wherever you want me to go. I must say its hard giving up control of your own life, having faith beyond measures because you never know what's going to happen. Once the transition was made I realized I walked into chaos. Family was in disarray, friendships were over, finances were short and I said oh no Lord send me back to Texas because this right here, I don't have the time for. I was discouraged and I felt more lonely then than I ever felt in my life. I had to pray on it and I thought of Job in the bible where God allowed the devil to test him, which he did, but the devil wasn't allowed to touch his soul then everything hit my heart like a ton of bricks, I realized my move wasn't for me, it had nothing to do with me. Once I came back my little brother started going to church, my sister (who is on her own journey) got saved, I get to date the most wonderful man and on top of that I feel closer to my best friends more than ever. This journey to and from Texas molded me into the woman God needed me to be for him and everyone else. I say all of this to say. Will you trust him today? Even when it looks dark, even when you don't know the outcome, even if it hurts, will you trust him? We are so quick to lean to our own understanding or allow our feelings to get the best of us but will you lean on him? For I don't know what tomorrow will bring but I know God is there already so need not to worry. Trust him in death, in low finances, in loneliness, in trouble times, when your friends don't pick up, when your relationship is rocky, when all you can do is cry, trust him, for the spirit of The Lord will never leave you. My journey back to NYC made me ask one question WHO AM I TO QUESTION GOD? *smiles*  Absolutely nobody!!!!!!!